littlemermaid

Having the winter blues is for the birds. We have had nothing but snow for over two weeks and finally went to school this past Weds. Two days of late arrival and a full day was tiring. I know, how can one be tired when you had all this time off? Well, talking and walking up and down stairs gets to you. Didn’t do Zumba 3-4 times a week as I have been, but did go and workout. It became obvious I need the zumba when the scale went the wrong direction. These things were getting me down, and then I had a yelling match with my spouse. So mad I couldn’t speak to him when he dropped me off at my school. Thank goodness I had my joyful students to keep me laughing.

The stress of the past two weeks got me down and feeling sorry for myself. I don’t like to bring my probems here, as the problems I have are very small and others are carrying burdens the size of mountains. Feeling  no one I know wants to hear my problems, I sulked and thought I should just give up this weight losss journey.(again it was self pity) During the evening I received a phone call from a dear buddy slim friend. She had no idea I was down and feeling sorry for myself. After laughing and talking I took her comment about “if she gave up everytime she gained”(can’t remember the rest to quote) but I did get the message. I have worked to hard to lose 20 of the 150lbs. I need to lose and feeling sorry for myself will only keep me where I am.

It is friends I have made here that keep me focused and encouraged. God works in mysterious ways. I would never have joined an on line blogging group in the past, but last Aug. God must have lead me here, to find others on the same journey. I am glad to help others on their journey and am greatful for the friends I  have made who love .me for me(they don’t even know me)  and put up with my moody spells.

Thank you all and I really do love you.

After having 4 snow days this week, we had today and monday off as scheduled off days. It seems like for ever since I have been in my classroom. Can’t wait to get back to my wonderful students.

Well, doing better on this weight loss journey. Finally reached the 20lb. mark but have so far to go. I am trying very hard to look at this journey in smaller incraments. Mynext goakl is 20 by the end of march. I know it is posible. Today seems to be a down day for me. Not sure why,but may be due to the weather we have had for weeks now. Don’t feel like going out because you just end up with wet shoes and pants. Guess I’ll just stay in again. the sun has to shine sooooooon. 

Well, today is one of those mile stone birthdays. Two weeks ago I was having a terrible issue with this. Thanks to buddy slim friends and my teaching partner I have come to terms. My teaching partner told me to embrace my age. Being one that has never felt my age or acted it, Ifound I can embrace this new time in my life. I enjoy life and am not going to fall into others traps of feeling old an dnegative. I have too much life to live and I don’t have time for self pity. My goal was to lose 20 pounds by today, but I am short 2lbs. I am not down about it because the 18 pounds is a mile stone and I am encouraged to keep going. Thanks to my buddyslim friends and wildcats who keep me going. love you all.

Glad to see so many people blogging. Amazing how many new people there are and how many people are returning. I find inspiration in reading the blogs you all post. I don’t post many as I find it helpful to read yours. But this blog is to encourage everyone, whether you have 5 pounds to lose or 100+ pounds, remember we are all in the same place. We can’t succeed unless we really try.  This is not my first attempt at losing weight. I’ve lost many times over the past 27 years and gained it back. I do not call that success. Success this time will be reaching my goal and staying there. I wish you all well on this journey.

Well, once again we are going to get snow. My students want a snow day and I am against it since we JUST had a vacation. (I understand their excitement) If the crazy dogs in my house don’t settle down they will be living in their kennels. (problem is there are 3 dogs and one kennel) We have our son’s white boxer until we can take it to him in Delaware. (a week from this Friday) My house is only a ranch and the dogs love to run and play. Don’t think I can make it another week. HEEEEELP

Weight wise I have joined ww on line and it is wonderful. I am able to calculate everything I eat. Know I can stick with this.

My son, daughter-in-law, and the baby were here for a week. It was wonderful having them and the baby is definately the princess. Had a lot of fun and ran all day Christmas. We went to my husband’s sisters for dinner at 1:00 and then to my parents at 4:45. Didn’t eat a lot  but I didn’t know my son had told some friends down the street we would come over. Went there about 8:45 and had a little to much fun.  All I will say is that my daughter has videos on her phone. I told her they are to disappear. Now it is time to get down to business and get to the gym and stay on track.

Many changes in my life in the past year. I think they are finally catching up with me. I guess I haven’t let myself feel what I have been feeling and this has given me an excuse to not focus whole heartedly on my weight. Hate to tell anyone what I am feeling because everyone has their own problems and issues. Just want to shake this burden and move on to the happy world I like to be in. No it’s not always happy, but at least I don’t feel whatever it is I am feeling.

On a good note, I haven’t really been hungry since having bronchitis. This is definately helping me with weightloss.  I love to read all of your blogs as I am encouraged by your strength.

I  try not to post anything depressing but I have not been myself this weekend and haven’t felt like telling my husband what’s wrong/ If I tell him it will make him cry too. Our son who just had a baby in Sept., is now in Afganistan until early Dec. My faith in God tells me he will be ok, but the mom in me is terribly worried. 

After 5 weeks of having bronchitis I think I am cured. Have felt great for two days in a row. Came home from teaching today a little tired but nothing like the past 5 weeks has been. It’s amazing how for granted we take feeling good.  Now I am ready to really kick this weight loss journey. I’ve got a lot to do to reach my goal but I know I can make it, may take longer than I want but  I’ll get there.

As I’ve been sitting here reading everyones blogs, they have made me realize that I don’t contribute like I could. Reading Nancy’s blog almost made me cry, because she is one person I am constantly inspired by. I struggle daily with this weight loss issue, but I am doing it for me not my mother, who has always been disappointed in me because I have gotten fat over the past 25 years.  I thank Nancy for being strong enough to let us know how she is feeling. I have never, and will probably never, be able to tell my mom, this is me for now.  Thank you to all the cats who give me support and encouragement. You will never know how much I need it.

I HOPE EVERYONE ON HERE HAS A FANTASTIC AND BLESSED WEEK!!!